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« on: December 01, 2015, 05:01:39 AM »
I have to hope that as I post more, more people will take notice of it. It's not very entertaining, I admit.
I can cut all this into two halves, the condition, and the bizarre isolated disempowered life situation growing out of the condition.
It goes back to the early 1980s. A milder but still painful eye problem was made many times worse by atropine eye ointment. I don't intend to drown you in technical details. Suffice to say it cramped eye muscles when it was supposed to relax them, changing their behavior permanently, so that smaller and smaller levels of light (and focusing of eyes on print) caused loner-lasting and greater and more painful spasm each time. So the problem "snowballed" from this point on.
Also a severe and overwhelming "current" or "electricity" (probably literally electricity, since our bodies run on electrical current) results from light, and reading. The more I aggravate this by reading or being in light, the more reactive I get-- so my life became about having to limit both very carefully. The world really doesn't allow you to do that. It demands you read and be in light constantly to function.
This is an extremely important part of it all. I'll just leave it at that for awhile, and hope people can see how this would turn your life upside down.